i spent quite a couple of minutes sitting in my toilet..in the shower..the water pit patting on my head..my face..tinking bout it thru..feel like i'm bitch..i dunno why all these things juz happen to mi all the time..last time also..now also..i was wrong in the past..i dun wanna be wrong again..maybe if i declare i'm les everything will not haf been so aired up..all the unhappiness and discomfort...maybe..maybe...i dunno..while typing these even..i feel like crying...hai...i dunno hold it on juz now..all the while..since morning..juz couldnt let it out..yeh i was puttina strong front..yes i was..i hate myself for doing that..i juz couldnt let it out..arghhh
i didnt meant to do it..u haf the rite..i haf the rite..we both are not really wrong..neither is the other party..all i wan is juz frens...u saw somethings and u assume u noe?? now tat u tell them..i dunno how to express..but 1 of them u told..juz make mi feel so uncomfortable..so weird if i was to see him..i feel so disgusted at myself..
this is the first and first time i feel like tat wif myself..to this extend..mybe i shld save some for myself..i haf privacy..onli some of my gd frens haf the priviledge to invade part of my privacy..when u do those things..i feel so broken..i feel so lost...so uptight..feel like everybody now noes wat's happen..ppl might see mi wif tat eye..i dunno..i juz hate myself now..
it's alright to tell mi..it's not wrong to tell mi wat's happening..who's pissed and angry..but do i haf the right to defend myself?? to protect myself??
read a blog of my fren's fren..bout her love life..well it's a love story..and i'm truely touched and felt alot..pity...they were best frens..had a sweet and happy start when they were tog..(it brought back memories..first memory)he was so sweet..she was happy, touched, determined..(parents object fully..but things got thru..felt so real...becoz it happened b/4)but he started to get violent..he hit her..yet HIT her..bang her head against the wall..hit her..bruises and cuts where wat she saw..she forgave him again and again..but she juz couldnt stand it..and left tat dark world..which she tot was sweet and xin fu..like a dark choc..it's bitter at first..but sweet later..but this is opp..
ky msged mi..ask mi if i wanna go jay's concert..i went to watch the first wif him..and he still remembered i said tat i want to watch the next if he has concert again..it has been 2-3yrs liao..he still remember..he say wanna buy tix for mi..but it's juz too ex for mi to except..i said no..he say juz take it as a bday prez..but i cant..so he said ask mi to meet him on sun..and den he'll pass mi last yr and this yr prez..i dunnno wat to do..maybe juz take it as a gift ba...
last nite chat wif div..he got prob..coz he's tinking too much(maybe like mi ba..)tinking bout him and his gf..well maybe like he said..to him now..career comes first..or well studies..we chat and he came up wif all the memories we had last time..bout how the teachers and so many ppl noe bout us..how we were called to the office once haha...(so cute rite..)how my parents object..and said it was puppy love haha..it's quite true lah..well 1 thing tat i didnt remember wat tat i like indian show haha..he still remember so sweet haha..welll it's quite long le..sweet 1st memories..the bears..and the nites and time we had spent..at his hse, the bus, cinemas..and how he's parents were so nice..and "coldcold" his dog hehe..miss those times man..well..we've both matured quite abit i guess..time dun wait..things change..
suddenly had so much feelings for everything..well within juz 2days all these happen..guess it's quite tiring and harsh..gotta concentrate on my prj somemore..exams juz around the corner..(i'll do wat i promised u)..hai..well i'm sad..yes i am..i'm stress..i need to breathe..i cant understand why i'm always into these shit..(alicia)..hai...
*juz me...biTcH*
----need u----

9:22 PM

reen.SLow
18th august 1986

where am i now: pursuing my future!
my all time wish:
to be as happy as i can be

this girl here loves to have people around. she loves chocs, strawberries, daisies, massages, movies, and of coz to indulge in good food and retail therapy!

always cherish those u have. your family, your love and your friends.

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