Wednesday, October 11, 2006
i like to sit and daydream. (:
ok get ready peeps. this entry is all bout
marriage. hahaha
out of a sudden i really feel like i'm growing up. the age 20 doesnt really seem to bother me until now. haha. how weird. bout how serious things can get, bout plans, bout family matters......whao..these are all coming in the moment the issue bout "getting married/engaged" started. well it was spoken bout before but not as much as it is now. it's almost filling up my few days recently. haha.
bliss ah. hee.
pros and cons la. it's always 2 sides to things. am really happy tat thing are getting tat on track and tat serious. the plans(i mean serious planning haha), our dilemas, our jobs, what we wan. it's all in the topic. after last nite, i'm really tinking. tinking of how it will be.
trying to draw out the sketch in my mind. the job he's toking bout puts mi thru lots of worries. well not tat he apply he'll get it straight also. muz go thru stages. but yeah i'm scared la. dilema like i said. distance, danger on it.
on the right, i wan him to go try wat he wanna do. dun wan him regret in life later for not doing what he wan. on the left, i dun wan him to go, coz i'm scared of the distance, i'm scared of the danger, i'm scared that things will be different after. money is impt, but it aint everything, it's u being by my side that is impt. no u, no money.(hmm got link?? i dunno how i tot of this. haha) but 1 thing, i feel secured and assured when he told me if he were to get selected for it,
he feel tat we shld get engaged 1st. hee. 'booked' each other. haha adorable. sweet. maybe it's true tat we're apart for tat few yrs to work hard for the money for marriage. then after tat it'll be much betta. can haf fun and enjoy. we need the money noe not like we can juz slack and juz be fed on or wait for ppl to pamper us. so well yeah.....i'm still tinking hard on this matter. maybe it's abit early to worry la.
but u noe getting prepared. hahaha. shall chill ya. hee.
da sao's so funnie saying how it's scary getting married next yr or the yr after. or well rather engaged i mean. it's like all her planning all spoilt haha. the way they saw a guy kneeling infront of the girl and how she's
not satisfied with tat type of proposal and wan more. haha. nice. hee. and bout how ppl ard her are also having this issue at the age of 21 and 22. gosh. haha. i tot ppl this generation wld wan to get tied down later? haha. most of the ppl la. for me, not too late also. dun wan the age-gap thing. like ab say she cant imagine frens now asking her to go to their wedding. haha. i've attended a couple so i noe how it feels haha. she say she dun wan ppl to look at her and ask her and her bf when theirs are. hahaha.
we also spoke bout how we wan
our gown to be so so so gorgeous but tinking of the money and spending on it and wearing it only once kills us haha. engagement rings. wedding bands. oh my god. we DO NEED MONEY. tinking bout last time(tink tat's only last yr) when i saw some wedding prog where they introduce diff stuff needed on weddings...from gowns to the place for the dinner.....to gifts......and gosh the issue is juz right in front of me now. super in the mood to get married man!!! haha.bleah.
it's already shopping for the ring le. MAN!
meeting the girls later! hee. (after much arrangement..)
meeting cat tml.
meeting my dear on both days!!! hee. cant wait for sat. our plan for scrumptous dinner.
it's so contradicting to see that.
cheers peeps!
cant bear to see u leave.
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