*sweet memories etched in my heart*

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

i like to sit and daydream. (:

i guess it could juz have been pms. coz she totally changed. today was juz so so different. no "late" warnings. no unreasonable crap. haha. and somemore early dimissed. la la la. today's a short day. and it's been gd.

made dear wait so long on mon. was really sorry. hope he felt my apology. sorry. anyway it's over it's over. as a punishment, i was told to plan the day's schedule. haha. had dinner. had fun. hee. muack! nv a day not fun with him.

felt so bad at times. kinda esp this time. it's like having myself in the dilema. but it doesnt onli involve me. i guess coz now we're ONE. so watever i feel i'll tell u. and hope u understand. and i guess u do. i feel bad coz it's becoz of my own "uncomfortable-ness" tat's why it's restricting u. guess it's somehow similar to how u tell mi u dun like the 'restrict' me also. but well guess it juz us wanting each other for ourselves ba. i'm glad tat u understand and can compromise. hugs.

was kinda feel moody coz i was kinda putting blame on myself and stuff. but the lecture on parenting was like "wow". it makes us tink so much. bout how being parent is. coz it is said tat u wun noe how ur child will be 5yrs down the road. or even tommorrow. u dunno how ur child will be. uncertainity fills the life. you can only anticipate. some different words of different meanings was introduced to me. with a new different kinda way. and somehow i put myself into the situation which was kidna weird. hmm dunno if u ppl understand wat i'm toking. hahaha.

it's gd to end sch early. haha. headed down to find gor. in the end met pal 1st instead. den in came fifi-owner. all their rubbish again. super funnie. as usual being made fun of. and when gor made the remark bout baby flying off. i was scared lo. haha. not really in much negative way la. but juz somehow feeling the day's coming nearer and nearer le........boohoo. haha. and so lucky as i was bout to go back. uncle came, so he fetched mi back. talking bout patience. it really struck me. ppl who noe me. or well i tink i dun really show my 'temper' or 'impatientness' infront of my frens. but if u ask my parents or bro, they'll tell u tat i'm a rather impatient person. well tat's before la. i noe i've improved along the way la. but well. somethings tat i do lately wld really surprise u tat i can actually do tat. haha. really. i'm surprised myself too and even asking myself why i'm doing these things. haha. ppl change. i've changed. hopefully for the betta. but onli for tat someone special hee. u'll noe. bleah.

irrevocabilty.

if there's smthing u wanna be proud of. i tink hanging ard shld be.

i should trust myself. and him.

a good 1 saying: will u surrender to temptation? (i hope u'll nv....)

it's all bout the basics.

believe.

i love you baby!

9:03 PM