after having a couple of endless sleepless weeks and surviving on 4hrs of slp everyday. i have made it thru. we have all made it thru. and i'm proud of myself and all of us. 2 more months to go. to the end. i hope not of our friendship. the strong bond we all had. sadness feels me when i tink about how lost i may be when we all split. there should be a routine planned to hang out once every fortnight or month. it's gonna be hard. but i noe we all will work hard. be strong. i noe i haf to be coz it wun be everyday when i'll juz have a shoulder to lean on. to hand to hold on. or a smile to give me support. it's vague. it will be. friendship come and go. but strong ones aint many. i hope we'll all sail.

a week of break seems nth much. but since i was able to be with myself alone. thoughts kept me awake. they kept me thinking. emotions ran high. keeping it to myself. not letting myself be vulnerable. one time smiling and cracking terrible jokes or idiotic comments to other. they laughed. but i smiled. covering my crack. the night. the wind. the crowd. i see. i quickly had to escape when i leaked. but i dun feel the high. but why. just the familiarity of words. the memories of your words, your touch and our love. soulmate. the one. i hope. i thot. i held on. a new start. a weird start. no explanation. no worries. no strings attached. ur needs may be met by another now. mine not. i had a plan on my own. to survive. i will survive.

i am not sorry for loving you.


Memories
Supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it be this hard
Should be strong
Moving on


a yr before. a yr from now. how will it be. nobody will know. a part of me will always be with you. the laughter, the tears and the love. will ur part stay with me?

How can you just walk away from me,
When all I can do is watch you leave,
Cause we shared the laughter and the pain,
And even shared the tears.

If you're coming back to me it's against all odds,
And that's what I've got to face.

There's so much I need to say to you,
So many reasons why,
You're the only one.

So take a look at me now,
So there's just an empty space,
But to wait for you is all I can do,
When that's what I've got to face.

You got a piece of me
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
I really shouldn't miss you,
But I can't let you go.

It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending I don't love you
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion

alright. i'm good. tanning and movie tog with girls. looking forward.
a big change.
have you seen it?
gd nyt.

11:32 PM

reen.SLow
18th august 1986

where am i now: pursuing my future!
my all time wish:
to be as happy as i can be

this girl here loves to have people around. she loves chocs, strawberries, daisies, massages, movies, and of coz to indulge in good food and retail therapy!

always cherish those u have. your family, your love and your friends.

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