Sunday, March 08, 2009
i like to sit and daydream. (:
feeling of loved. blessed. and awake once again.
begin.
许多的伤痛都已经忘掉
记忆里剩下的全是美好
只是我们都清楚地知道
心里还有个划不完的句号只怪你和我相爱得太早对于幸福又了解的太少
于是自私让爱变成煎熬
付出了所有却让彼此想逃跑
上天让我们相遇得太早
对于缘份却又给得太少
才让我们只能陷在回忆中懊恼
it doesnt matter anymore if i saw u.
it doesnt matter anymore wat i tink about u.
it doesnt matter anymore wat u tink bout me.
i cleared it. i loved it. i will remember it.
movies with my girls. a couple seat being occupied by 2 girls. not by u. sharing waffles with the girls. not with u. walking home by myself. not with you. many more without u. shopping with the girls. not with you. not getting anything for u. going for massages by myself. not going with you. not sharing the couple jacuzzi with you. not having a couple's room. i got used to it. i noe i will.
when i was watching "The Curious...", a phrase struck mi. i remembered,
u said,
"Will you still love me when i continue snoring in the future, when we're old, or when I have all the aches on my knees and my back?""Will you hug me and be there when i sense and is afraid of something under my bed?" (he always tinks tat smthing will come out of under his bed you see. haha)movie said,
"Will you still love me when my skin get old and saggy?" "Will you love my acne?"it made mi missed you. but it slapped. and i'm fine.
old me dead and gone away. the new me is gonna be right. i read smthing. and it hit me. it wasnt like tat. we were blinded. we may have been. i've never really said too much. juz leave the light on. if either of us comes back. try to leave the light on when i'm gone.
i'm stronger than I thought I am. and nobody. nobody gonna bring me down.
esp to tat level.
i will always remember wat u said. nv to go down to tat level.
i'm happy. i'm a betta person. i have a goal in life. surely. concentrate on my career for now. party when the time comes. with my friends. be a glutton when there is a chance. slp as much when i can. drink as much when I am safe. i'm cool. i'm satisfied. be there when anybody needs me.
men give loVe to get sex, women give sex to get lOve (maybe it wasnt like tat?)Remember those walls I built
Well baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make a sound
It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out
can i keep you? period.
our song. unbelievable. my valentine.
the rest. disappeared.
if loving you with all my heart's a crime. then i'm guilty.
guilty.
9:48 PM
