i surrender to you.

i'm so scared..

the moment i hear u. i froze. everything was churning. i tot i'd be fine. but i cant be. this time round i could not be fine. my mind din tell my heart to be fine. to fake fine at least. it's so hard.

it was then we started the convo. then blossom. it was later then i fed u due to the injured wrist. then celebrated. it is now. that i tried to run. but u caught up with me. with my thoughts. i couldn't run. period.

i hate this. i really do. i want to get it over and done with. i want it. i want more than this. i wan the past. i want the future. i want now. but i dun tink you can give me. ever. i hate to hear it from them. i hate tat i'm alone in this. alone. i'm not ashame of it. tired of hiding.

i wont do someone else like the way we did.

i want it. i want to be at our secret hideout.

i floated pass some. i gave u up at times. i fell. then i got back on u. i couldnt concentrate. it was a moment of vulnerbility. counted as a mistake. needed something to get away from u. but i woke up and fell right back at u. right back. no question. no thinking bout it. why is this so?

dreams were so real. then they faded out from reality. some stayed. stayed to fill into the reality. replacement the dreams we had. the nightmares stayed. the comfort of them being a dreams. turned to reality. filling all those thoughts with them. those words. the way you touched. the way u had your body against mine. the way u kissed me goodbye. the way u held me like there's not tml and that u din wanna let go. the way those words melted my soul. without any cost to u. they should have faded. long gone. but haunted by the truth. haunted by the past. the love i had for you. the love you had for me. the love we had is the haunting.

collide.

u hated the way "it" did to u. but u did the same way back. was it fair?

^^^^^^^^^
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my
I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do

****
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

Keep me in your memory

****
Had no reason, no rhyme
Like a song out of time
And there you were, standing in front of my eyes

You're the air that I breathe
(Boy) you're all that I need
And I wanna thank you, (baby)
You're the words that I read
You're the light that I see
And your love is all that I need

*This I promise you -- had been crushed*


Happy Birthday to YOU. =)

7:29 PM

reen.SLow
18th august 1986

where am i now: pursuing my future!
my all time wish:
to be as happy as i can be

this girl here loves to have people around. she loves chocs, strawberries, daisies, massages, movies, and of coz to indulge in good food and retail therapy!

always cherish those u have. your family, your love and your friends.

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