*sweet memories etched in my heart*

Saturday, June 12, 2004

i like to sit and daydream. (:

cant breathe...

everything is going bad for mi..everything..from family to frens..dad's kinda pissed wif my actions recently..for mi coming back late..hai..but now getting betta le..at least morning wake up see him still call him..last nite..something tat i didnt would happen soo fast suddenly came rushing at mi..i wasnt prepared..after hearing all..questions tat he asked..i juz feel like i cant tink..cant breathe..in such a short period..2 person come rushing at mi..tell mi sooo much things..too much for mi tink bout or to handle..i juz feel like shouting..and really crying out...i cant cry at hm...onli in my room..when i'm alone..he ask mi alot of quez..quez tat i didnt expect him to ask..or things tat i dun expect him to say or remember..it's juz a landmine..i didnt noe when it's going to go off..juz walk and walk..and suddenly whithout notice it juz explode infront of u..ur heart tearing..warm tears rolling down ur cheek like gushing tap..hurting..pain..waiting for somebody to treat u..but when somebody wanna help u..u juz dunno if u can trust the person to treat ur injuries...u dun wan anymore pain..but how can u get treated and get well without pain??!! worse..i've step on 2 consequetive landmines...*sob* i'm in a mess..cant see things or my future clearly..all of the sudden..i dunno wat i wan..wat i've always wanted..would u really gif up ur future for a person? wat do u really see in this person??? i dun understand...dun understand at all..why haf we been always gd frens and now u haf to spoil the original friendship by tellin mi all these?? why cant we juz be like before..i dun wan this kinda life..i mean i dun wan every morning reluctant to wake up to face the day...noeing tat i might hurt somebody..who cares for mi??...really..deep down inside i feel very sad..really bad..horrible..something tat i noe no matter wat i say to my best fren cant solve and will never understand..yes it's true tat juz becoz of past failed relationships i'm scared..i dun haf the confidence anymore..but plz..dun take the past to compare wif the present..nth much to say..it's all in the lyrics..

爱我的人和我爱的人

盼不到我爱的人我知道我愿意再等
疼不了爱我的人片刻柔情他骗不了人
我不是无情的人却将你伤的最深
我不忍我不能别再认真忘了我的人
离不开我爱的人我知道爱要缘份
放不下爱我的人因为了解他多么认真
为什么最真的心碰不到最好的人
我不问我不能拥在怀中直到它变冷
爱我的人对我痴心不悔我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对谁对谁不必虚伪
爱我的人为我付出一切我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围

分享

时间已做了选择 什么人叫做朋友
偶而碰头心情却能一点就通
因为我们曾有过理想类似的生活
太多感受绝非三言两语能形容
可能有时我们顾虑太多
太多决定需要我们去选择
担心会犯错难免会受挫
幸好一路上有你陪我与你分享的快乐
胜过独自拥有至今我仍深深感动
好友如同一扇窗能让视野不同
与你分享的快乐胜过独自拥有
至今我仍深深感动
好友如同一扇门让世界(变)开阔

哭不出来

才知道那都是真的爱是真实存在
晴的天雨的夜平常的语言
怎么我 宁愿不要懂你温暖的宽容
让爱来让爱走让你让心都受痛
我想哭但是哭不出来
等到思念像海
淹没我而爱已不再
你绝望的离开没有泪留下来
我哭了爱再不会回来(爱不再回来)
我会这么等待
舍不得已春去秋来在你的爱之外
我在那里存在(我该不该等待)
喔..... 我爱就爱错就错
为你爱为爱等待呜.....

9:53 PM