my nightmare has turned up.

nth seems to be able to get it done. nothing.

i hate the feeling. i hate the loneliness i'll get. i'm a very dependent person. i cant be alone.

the unusual time spent. the far-away place. the 'no-skin-touch' meeting. i can nv do tat.

now hanging out i appreciate the time tog. the warmth from your hands. the look in your eyes. the smile u give me. the song you sing to. the hugs you give. the peck on the lips u give. the whistling every moment now and then. the passionate time we have. i cannot let you put all these behind.

the dinners we go to. the time we hang out. who will go to the movies with me now. who will? who will hold my hand when we watch movies and who will take bus rides with me. sharing my mp3. listening to the 'repeating songs'. like it was accidental.

what about wat we've planned. the dates to be tog. sharing every 9th. special occasions. now. i do not worry about my Boston trip. i worry for the new yr to come. it's really the 1st time i'm so reluctant to move into the new yr. 2008. seems to be a nightmare.

i cant believe it. the 1 i can really love. want to be really with. smthing like tat have to happen.

i know is our future. i know i have to learn. i know i have to sacrifice. but this is too selfish.

what if i yearn for touch. wat if i yearn for kisses. wat if i yearn for hugs. wat if i yearn for the smell. the smell from his face. from his shirt. no way am i gonna learn that. that far away.

it's gonna be just less than 2 mths for now. i can never do. nobody can help me. nobody will really understand me. except you. but you have to go. i'm so helpless i'm so down. i'm so depress.

i will wait for you. i hope i will. u say u will too. but we dunno wat will. who will. how will.

i love you baby. i love you. plz dun go.

12:24 PM

reen.SLow
18th august 1986

where am i now: pursuing my future!
my all time wish:
to be as happy as i can be

this girl here loves to have people around. she loves chocs, strawberries, daisies, massages, movies, and of coz to indulge in good food and retail therapy!

always cherish those u have. your family, your love and your friends.

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